You Were Meant To Fly: March 2012

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Saying what was on my mind felt dangerous

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Summer air floats through the window and I have no idea what I'm feeling.

Spring break is half over and I've done nothing. So far all I've one is re-watch The Office with my sister and stay up late into the night wishing things were different. I have things to do put I keep pushing them back which causes me so much stress, yet I keep doing it.
I haven't really been on my game lately. I've lost all control it feels like.
I felt like this once before and everything came tumbling down. I think that might happen again.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

I don't think he notices that when he smiles my knees get weak.

Neon lights shine against the dark night sky as I leave my past behind,
Ready for a life of no regrets

This Time

I don't want to jinx my luck but he's sweeter than roses and I think this time I might get what I want.

The Right One

It all came down and we're left with nothing to say. It was a long time coming and you have a tendency to make a mess of me. We were on the verge of going in circles and I know it will take a while to get over you, but I know one day we'll both find the right one.

Suddenly

Its scary how quickly things can change, Suddenly there's no spark. Suddenly, you don't make my heart skip a beat. We're wasting time and there's nothing we can do.

All the shadows fade away

I'm tripping over my two feet on my way to you. You start to make your way to me from across the room and all the shadows fade away

I can never be sure how feel but that look in your eyes is enough to get me through

Breezy Breath

There are crashing waves in front of me on this summer's eve. You're telling me unbelievable things with your breezy breath and I know you can make all my dreams come true.

I'm wracked with guilt every time I think of how I hurt you.

GL is back once again

You walked past me and I didn't know what to think. You consume my thoughts once again. Others have tried to take your place but you keep creeping back to the front of my mind.

I'm trying to wash away every memory of you, scrubbing at the surface to get the stain of your crooked smile off my heart.

I wanted what I couldn't have

and somewhere along the way I saw you for what you really are. Glittering skies and fresh blossoms can't hide the monster that hides behind that handsome mask

I'll have to let you go because I can't even look at you now. I'm trying to survive and I can't do that with you by my side

When I'm Away

When I'm away I imagine you crawling back for more. In my mind I see you driving around, always managing to end up on my side of town

I have a fear of falling and you're pulling me down quickly. Don't make me beg for my escape.

You're wrapped around my heart, squeezing hard. You take what you can get and then move on, leaving me bruised and broken

Let My Heart Speak

You'll never notice how I can't breathe when you're around. I'll keep these feelings bottled up until I can gather the courage to let my heart speak the truth

These feeling aren't true

You should know better than to listen to me when I'm angry. I still want every piece of you.

Fake Smiles and Settling

A year has passed and I'm finally realizing that you're the cure to this heartbreak. Now all I have is your memory that keeps playing through my mind.
My heart beats for you, and I'm stuck in a lonely place, forcing myself to smile, knowing that I will have to settle for less.

You wrote me a song

and I never looked back. With a simple whisper I'm all yours

I can tell by the vacancy in your eyes that you're not in love so let's stop pretending

Be with me, please, or I'll fade away

You're different than the rest.

You have everything they don't
You say the words they won't
And you make me feel like they can't

You'll Never Know What I Have To Say

My tongue is tied. I won't waste these words, these well rehearsed lines on you. You'll never know what I have to say.

In the beginning you never think it'll hurt,

but by the end you realize you knew it all along.

I'll Never Be The Same Again

I'm falling in love so say you'll fall with me

Just To Say You Could

You didn't mean anything you said, did you? Just wanted to capture my heart to say you could.

Point Of View

Just once I wish I could see myself from your point of view. Maybe then I'd know what you felt.

Less alone

When I'm with you I feel less alone, like there's no way I could ever be lonely again.

I thought I knew who you were,

but you went and changed on me

Rain makes the air cold, creating a chill I can't seem to escape.

All I seem to do is look out the window and think of you

Everything I want to hear flows seamlessly out of his mouth. I wonder if any of it is true.

Out of breath

My body aches from tiredness and then I see someone I thought was you. Feelings come flooding back. If you were here you'd be out of place and I'd be out of breath.

Meant to be

Doesn't it mean we're meant to be together if I know you're too good for me? If I feel like I don't deserve you? Doesn't it mean we're supposed to be together if I feel this way about you?

Blonde hair, brown eyes, everything I've ever wanted.

Shame on you.

Cut me down why don't you? Make me feel worse than i already do. Make me regret everything I've ever said or done. Make yourself feel better at my expense and then ignore me as I wipe away my tears.

Jarred

It was one of those jarring moments when you can't comprehend what you've just seen and in that instant I knew how I really felt for you.

I don't want to see how this will end.

It will cause an earth shattering heartbreak that I don't think I can bear.

I didn't think we'd end this way and I just wanted to say that I'm sorry.

More or Less

Am I worth what everyone says I am? Or am I something much less?

Who said?

You walk me to the car and I feel myself tense up, anticipating your next move. You're constantly surprising me. I feel like I can't get used to this feeling of excitement, but who said I wanted to?

A Sad Heart's Ramblings

In the middle of the game you changed the rules. I might still love you, but I changed my mind. It isn't like me to forgive and forget, but it isn't like you to be where you said you'd be. I tell myself I might be losing if I let you in again, but it might be worth it.