He said he loved her.
They were at the movies, watching a boring movie. Her palms were sweaty.
She could tell there was something different about this night. The credits began to roll. He stood up and offered her his hand. She took it gladly. He brought her for ice cream. They laughed and smiled. Her face was already in a smile when he said it. Those three simple words that carry so much weight.
"I love you."
I love you, too," she answered back. The stars seemed brighter all of a sudden. Any worries she had about anything at all dissolved.
Flash forward a week. She's at the mall alone, doing some errands. He's with some other girl. A girl she recognizes from the junior class. A girl she knows. He's holding her hand, and she's smiling.
There's no way to tell exactly what he says, but he says it at a time when there's a smile already etched on this other girl's face.
When he's done talking the other girl seems to stand taller. Anyone could tell she was pleased.
Later that night she calls him.
"Tell me, she says into the phone. "Tell me what you were thinking. Who are you? I thought I knew." All she heard was silence. "Could you tell me what did I do? Because we can't already be through."
In the end, though they were done. She knew it as soon as she called him. It was just what he did. He took what he wanted and left her there with nowhere to go. He sold her out for a fool.
Sunday, May 29, 2011
“I had a moment, just one moment that made everything completely clear to me. I was looking at the night sky and I could see everything: the stars, planets, galaxies. I felt like a speck, who was here for one moment in time and then gone. And I decided that while I’m here I want to be with my friends and the people I love because when I’m with you guys I don’t feel that small.”
| — | Boy Meets World, episode 6.22 |
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Belief
I have to believe that things will get better.
I have to believe that the sky will clear.
I have to believe that the air will warm.
I have to believe that maybe its better to be alone.
I have to believe that my hard work will bring me places.
I have to believe that it will all work out in the end.
I have to believe that the sky will clear.
I have to believe that the air will warm.
I have to believe that maybe its better to be alone.
I have to believe that my hard work will bring me places.
I have to believe that it will all work out in the end.
I Hate Getting my Picture Taken
Today I had to get my picture taken for winning a superlative. Ugh. I know I looked terrible. Everything about today was just not fun and i hated everything. I also hate the other person who won shyest. He will forever be on my hate-list.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Book Review: My Name Is Memory by Ann Brashares
My Name Is Memory is a fairly new book, published in 2010. I had wanted it for my birthday back in December but never got it. I recently checked it out from the library though.
The story is about this guy named Daniel who has a very impressive memory. He is someone who is reincarnated, and everyone else in the book is too, only he can remember his past lives. In each life he is in love with the same girl, but she does not share this unique memory. Sometimes they don't match up. He is a young boy while she is an old woman, or vice versa. One time he was a peasant boy while she was a princess a few years his senior. Sometimes they just simply cannot be together. He loves her just the same, though. He tries as hard as he can to make Lucy remember. He calls her Sophia because that was the last name she had when he had seen her last before his current life. His brother from a previous life also shows up just to add a little drama.
It gets a little bit confusing, but is not that hard to understand once you get the characters straight. It was a decent read but I didn't really get into it. I'm glad I only got it from the library and didn't buy it. I don't think its something I'll ever want to read again. I was expecting something different. I am a fan of her other books, the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants and The last Summer of Me and You, but this didn't live up to my expectations.
It wasn't terribly bad, just not what I'm usually into. Maybe if you're a little older you'll like it better, but for now I give it 3 out of 5 stars.
The story is about this guy named Daniel who has a very impressive memory. He is someone who is reincarnated, and everyone else in the book is too, only he can remember his past lives. In each life he is in love with the same girl, but she does not share this unique memory. Sometimes they don't match up. He is a young boy while she is an old woman, or vice versa. One time he was a peasant boy while she was a princess a few years his senior. Sometimes they just simply cannot be together. He loves her just the same, though. He tries as hard as he can to make Lucy remember. He calls her Sophia because that was the last name she had when he had seen her last before his current life. His brother from a previous life also shows up just to add a little drama.
It wasn't terribly bad, just not what I'm usually into. Maybe if you're a little older you'll like it better, but for now I give it 3 out of 5 stars.
A simple Sunday gone awry...
I got up around eight this morning. I was sitting there eating my rice krispies, minding my own business when my mom called. She had forgotten her keys to her office/other important things she needed access to. Once I finished I quickly changed but kept my hair in a really gross looking messy bun and hopped in the car with my sister. We drove about an hour and fifteen minutes and got there, but she wasn't there. She got called out to deal with something, so we had to leave the keys with the ticket agent. It was not fun at all. Then we got a little bit lost on the way back, but we finally made it. It was around twelve when we got back and we had sandwiches for lunch. Its four now and though I don't have much else to do besides laundry and stuff, I can't help but feel like my whole day has been ruined. :(
Saturday, May 21, 2011
He walked around my life and made me blind with every single move
He kept her up at night. She only thought of him for six glorious months. Then she learned the truth. Cheater. The word danced around her mind. How could she miss it? The signs were all there.
She cried. And cried. As much as she wanted to she couldn't turn this page of her life. He was always there, taunting her. Whenever she was happy for a second, the memories came flooding back. He hurt her in an unforgivable way.
In the beginning she was too caught up in the feelings of new love to realize anything was wrong. But then reality crept in. Always a cynic, she assumed the worst, only this time she didn't want to be right.
Now, the nights are long and cold. Why did she have to be right?
She cried. And cried. As much as she wanted to she couldn't turn this page of her life. He was always there, taunting her. Whenever she was happy for a second, the memories came flooding back. He hurt her in an unforgivable way.
In the beginning she was too caught up in the feelings of new love to realize anything was wrong. But then reality crept in. Always a cynic, she assumed the worst, only this time she didn't want to be right.
Now, the nights are long and cold. Why did she have to be right?
wear out that old wishing well, never know if time will tell
After a long day she went to his house. She just walked right on up to his room and crawled into his bed with him. He was reading and didn't even look up when she came in, just put his arm around her and held her as she cried. He was no good at advice or consoling with words, but the silence was enough for now. All she needed was someone to be there for her.
They stayed like that for a while but she had to be home soon. She sat up, wiped her eyes and began walking to the door. Once she was there she looked back. He was reading again, but looked up when he noticed her looking at him. He offered her a small smile. It wasn't much, but it was enough to make her heart feel whole again.
Who knew? Maybe one day she would stay the night. Maybe she would never cry over anyone again. Maybe he was the one who could make her happy.
They stayed like that for a while but she had to be home soon. She sat up, wiped her eyes and began walking to the door. Once she was there she looked back. He was reading again, but looked up when he noticed her looking at him. He offered her a small smile. It wasn't much, but it was enough to make her heart feel whole again.
Who knew? Maybe one day she would stay the night. Maybe she would never cry over anyone again. Maybe he was the one who could make her happy.
“Life can be long or short, it all depends on how you choose to live it. It’s like forever, always changing. For any of us our forever could end in an hour, or a hundred years from now. You can never know for sure, so you’d better make every second count. What you have to decide is how you want your life to be. If your forever was ending tomorrow, is this how you’d want to have spent it?”
| — | The Truth About Forever |
Curled my hair and hour ago...
I simply cannot pull them off. They never turn out the way I want them to.
Anyway, tonight I'm watching a show and this episode is all about prom. HAHAHA! some guy took his guitar as his date, and this other girl is wearing this hideous dress and contemplating the use of forks.
Only two people are running the prom, meaning two people are taking the pictures, serving dinner and acting as the DJ.
Away from that, I guess blogging is more fun than I thought it would be. My first posts were song/poem thing I wrote and then I made a post about my life and the end of school. I made a review of a product I really enjoy. Then there's this.
I have no idea what this blog will be. Maybe a combination of all those things? I don't know. Whatever strikes me at the moment, I guess.
Well, bye for now. :)
Anyway, tonight I'm watching a show and this episode is all about prom. HAHAHA! some guy took his guitar as his date, and this other girl is wearing this hideous dress and contemplating the use of forks.
Only two people are running the prom, meaning two people are taking the pictures, serving dinner and acting as the DJ.
Away from that, I guess blogging is more fun than I thought it would be. My first posts were song/poem thing I wrote and then I made a post about my life and the end of school. I made a review of a product I really enjoy. Then there's this.
I have no idea what this blog will be. Maybe a combination of all those things? I don't know. Whatever strikes me at the moment, I guess.
Well, bye for now. :)
Clinique 3-Step Skin Care System
This is honestly the best skin care system I've ever used. I first purchased sample sizes for about $25 at Sephora last April. I instantly fell in love and when my samples ran out (after about a month.. I got the travel kit) I immediately went out and purchased the full sizes.
There are four levels of the system, 1,2,3,and 4. 1 and 2 are for dry skin, while 3 and 4 are for more oily skin. I am a 2 because I have dry skin than can be oily at times (3 would be for oily skin that is not too oily and can sometimes be dry).
Step one is a facial cleanser. I only need one pump of this to get my whole face clean.
Step two is the clarifying lotion, aka toner. Its not too harsh and i can really feel it working! I use about two pumps on a cotton ball, that's all I need to get the job done!
Step three is the dramatically different moisturizing lotion/gel. Depending on what level you are, you'll get either the lotion or the gel. If you are level 1 or 2 you'll get the lotion. If you're a 3 or a 4 you'll get the gel. Since I'm a 2 I've only used the lotion. I really like it and find that is moisturizes really well. Again, I only need one pump of this.
Use these both morning and night and clear skin will come your way!
It will take some time for you to see results. This is not something that will clear your skin overnight. It gradually clears your skin and eventually (for me it was 2 or 3 weeks) you'll notice that no new acne is forming.
To begin with I had very mild acne, but I really did notice a difference!
I completely recommend this system.
Feel It All
I feel it all
from the way you pick up and leave
and don't even look back
I feel t all
I felt it all
when you told me you loved me
you'd never let me go
now you're packing boxes, can't get out fast enough
can't get away from me fast enough
That first day I fell hard
didn't wanna believe in the love you were throwing my way
didn't wanna believe I could feel like that
oh, what i'd do to get that moment back
and throw it in your face
you don't deserve me anyway
I feel it all
from the way you pick up and leave
and don't even look back
I feel it all
I felt it all when I saw you with her
breaking the rules, going behind my back
can't believe I believed in your love
Can't believe I let you make me feel like that
oh, what I'd do to get that moment back
and throw it in your face
you don't deserve me anyway
from the way you pick up and leave
and don't even look back
I feel t all
I felt it all
when you told me you loved me
you'd never let me go
now you're packing boxes, can't get out fast enough
can't get away from me fast enough
That first day I fell hard
didn't wanna believe in the love you were throwing my way
didn't wanna believe I could feel like that
oh, what i'd do to get that moment back
and throw it in your face
you don't deserve me anyway
I feel it all
from the way you pick up and leave
and don't even look back
I feel it all
I felt it all when I saw you with her
breaking the rules, going behind my back
can't believe I believed in your love
Can't believe I let you make me feel like that
oh, what I'd do to get that moment back
and throw it in your face
you don't deserve me anyway
I think a part of me will always be waiting for you
My pillow knows the truth at night
Knows I hardly sleep at all
I swear I can get through the day, though I'll only think of you
The world only sees me smile
Doesn't know my love grows for you
Grows for you everyday
Could never quite place the color of you eyes, but knew every laugh line
Remembered all the times I thought we could be wonderful
Knows I hardly sleep at all
I swear I can get through the day, though I'll only think of you
The world only sees me smile
Doesn't know my love grows for you
Grows for you everyday
Could never quite place the color of you eyes, but knew every laugh line
Remembered all the times I thought we could be wonderful
The years have lasted too long, but they're ending too soon
Today is Saturday and I'm loving the weekend so far. On Monday, however, I will begin my last week of high school. Thursday will be my last day of classes. On Friday I'll take two finals, get another (long) weekend and then take my last two finals the following Tuesday. I'll have the rest of the week off and I know I'll enjoy it, especially my younger brother will still have to go to school!
The week after that I'll have a few graduation rehearsals and then actual graduation and stuff, but basically, I AM DONE WITH HIGH SCHOOL!!!!!!!
No words can describe what I'm feeling right now. akjdkshfkslahfd
I'm just so happy.
Yesterday was the senior pep rally. Our last pep rally EVER! Seniors who won a superlative were called down off the bleachers and given a gift relating to the superlative they won, i.e me. hahaha.
I won shyest. That's right. So I got an eye mask, like the ones some people wear to bed. You'd think walking in front of the entire school would be wicked embarrassing, especially for someone who won shyest, but it really wasn't. I mean, the microphone wasn't working so my class advisors were just shouting out the names, and I was one of the last categories called so there were like twenty other kid up there with me, so that helped.
I'm just so glad I'll finally begetting out of there and onto bigger, better things.
College begins at the end of August and I cannot wait!
The week after that I'll have a few graduation rehearsals and then actual graduation and stuff, but basically, I AM DONE WITH HIGH SCHOOL!!!!!!!
No words can describe what I'm feeling right now. akjdkshfkslahfd
I'm just so happy.
Yesterday was the senior pep rally. Our last pep rally EVER! Seniors who won a superlative were called down off the bleachers and given a gift relating to the superlative they won, i.e me. hahaha.
I won shyest. That's right. So I got an eye mask, like the ones some people wear to bed. You'd think walking in front of the entire school would be wicked embarrassing, especially for someone who won shyest, but it really wasn't. I mean, the microphone wasn't working so my class advisors were just shouting out the names, and I was one of the last categories called so there were like twenty other kid up there with me, so that helped.
I'm just so glad I'll finally begetting out of there and onto bigger, better things.
College begins at the end of August and I cannot wait!
I don't need you
I still believe in everything you ever told me
Even though you're gone
Even though you chose to go
Still take time to sit back and smell the roses
Laugh at all the small things
Smile into the summer breeze
Even though you chose to go
Even though you're gone
Even though you chose to go
Still take time to sit back and smell the roses
Laugh at all the small things
Smile into the summer breeze
Even though you chose to go
Because I'm not the kind of girl guys fall in love with
Always on the sidelines, watching from a distance
Spending every weekend alone
Never feeling welcome, even at home
Wish I could stand up and say what I feel, but I'm not like that
Too introverted to even notice anything other than defeat
Knowing everything about everyone, but them nothing of me
Not even my name
I'm always invisible, but that's okay
Spending every weekend alone
Never feeling welcome, even at home
Wish I could stand up and say what I feel, but I'm not like that
Too introverted to even notice anything other than defeat
Knowing everything about everyone, but them nothing of me
Not even my name
I'm always invisible, but that's okay
Paul
This love I feel for you will never fade
This love I feel will never go away,
Not completely anyway
Nothing can make me feel anything anymore
Other guys, they don't even catch my eye
No not like you
All I ever think about is your eyes and you sitting with me
Laughing at all the wrong times
Sharing secrets that Monday night
Only knew you for a little while
not long enough at all
My love will last long into the future
I wonder if you even notice me anymore
But for me, when I see you its all I can do not to fall apart on the ground,
Wishing that I was somehow bound to you for longer than just a moment
I hope you notice
All I ever think about is your eyes and you sitting with me
Laughing at all the wrong times
Sharing secrets on that cold Monday night
We ran across a busy street and you looked at me
That's when I knew
I'd never get over you
This love I feel will never go away,
Not completely anyway
Nothing can make me feel anything anymore
Other guys, they don't even catch my eye
No not like you
All I ever think about is your eyes and you sitting with me
Laughing at all the wrong times
Sharing secrets that Monday night
Only knew you for a little while
not long enough at all
My love will last long into the future
I wonder if you even notice me anymore
But for me, when I see you its all I can do not to fall apart on the ground,
Wishing that I was somehow bound to you for longer than just a moment
I hope you notice
All I ever think about is your eyes and you sitting with me
Laughing at all the wrong times
Sharing secrets on that cold Monday night
We ran across a busy street and you looked at me
That's when I knew
I'd never get over you
Never Knew
Sun sets and car crashes, never knew you'd be gone from me
The sky was orange and you were smiling.
Loved it when you were laughing.
Riding in the car with you was something we'd always do
never knew you'd be gone from me
The nights are long and my tears are finally gone
The sun don't even shine no more
No way I can go on, not without you here
You're the only thing I've ever known
Never knew you'd be gone from me
You were gone on impact and I walked away without a scratch
It's just not fair
I used to live without a care but now I'm just so scared
scared to do anything
Sun Sets and car crashes
never knew you'd be gone from me
The sky was orange and you were smiling.
Loved it when you were laughing.
Riding in the car with you was something we'd always do
never knew you'd be gone from me
The nights are long and my tears are finally gone
The sun don't even shine no more
No way I can go on, not without you here
You're the only thing I've ever known
Never knew you'd be gone from me
You were gone on impact and I walked away without a scratch
It's just not fair
I used to live without a care but now I'm just so scared
scared to do anything
Sun Sets and car crashes
never knew you'd be gone from me
It would have been nice to see you coming, but that would have ruined the surprise
The other day my friend told me how much she loved blogging and just posting random things. I've never really seen the appeal to it, but I thought I'd try it out. I'm not really sure what this will be about, but I'll try my best to keep it interesting.
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